Uprooting your life to move to a foreign country is something that most people only dream of. I know I was one of those people for the majority of my life. When the opportunity finally presented itself, I did not hesitate even for a second. In fact, I think that it is safe to say that it has been the most rash decision that I have ever made in my life. Once I committed to coming here, I was beyond thrilled and excited to get out of the black hole of a town that I have called home for my entire life. Being here has been one of the most mind boggling experiences of my life. The concept of moving to a place where you literally know nobody and do not speak even a word of the language is something that I clearly did not take into account when deciding to move here. Although it has been fun, full of adventure, and brought me extreme joy at times, it has never, not even for even a second, been easy to live here.
Yes, I love where I live now. It is so peaceful, and safe and is comprised of some of the most beautiful things that I have ever seen. Yet I still find myself left with a feeling of emptiness. As I sit in my room, alone, on a Friday night, at the ripe age of 22 and single I cannot help but think to myself how pathetic I am. GET A LIFE!!!! I keep telling myself over and over, but nobody ever said it would be easy. It is so hard. It is so hard to meet people. It is hard to communicate. It is hard to navigate my way around. It is hard to go and do things with only my feet and a bike for transportation. It is hard to not have the food that I like. It is hard to have virtually no friends. And dammit it is really hard to be away from my family. I never thought that I would say this, but I really miss Redding. I want nothing more in this moment than to be home surrounded by those that I love and those that love me.
Don't get me wrong, I am enjoying my time here. I love the people that I live with, and my job. It is so peaceful and very relaxing living the life that I am. It is very low maintenance and I can do just about anything that I want to. However, it would be a lot more fulfilling and enjoyable if I had some freaking friends to hang out with! I like myself, and I do like my alone time, but damn. I want to get out there and spread my wings and meet some people and interact. I am so desperate for interaction with people my age that it is slowly killing me inside.
